For as much as I try to escape from this world, a shred of me will fly away from the lonely soul of mine. I, personally, don't know what to do. I'm in the middle of dilemma to decide either to continue losing this world full of fake or to keep my self from falling apart, since it's no longer nourished by the sympathy of the world.
My brain is full of cavities.
My mind is vacant.
So I stay put.
"Let the soul to decide." - I secretly said.
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"Why?" is the question I repeatedly asked to myself. I keep asking to self the same question, days and nights, with only the same word of "Why", no other words come after that. Technically, there will be no answer if the rest of the question remain unknown but that is exactly what myself now; I am an unknown. And the matter doesn't bother me that much (as much as other people keep bothering bout other people faults. I'm sick of this).
I lose hope to untrustworthy & insincere people (this was when I began to lose hope to my self). I like to quote that trustworthy is like a glass & sincerity is like the darkness of the night. If my very eyes don't see this people in any of these ways, I will try to drag myself away, not swiftly but slowly. Because if you lost abruptly, they will notice your absence. Let me ask you this; Have you ever been to dreamland with a book in hand? You read a good book then suddenly you fell asleep? Be like that. Detach yourself from those people unconsciously and let them sleep like a log soundly.
At this point, another questions come:
1) Why would trustworthy is like a glass
2) and sincerity is like the darkness of the night?
3) Why would I need to detach from those two kinds of people mentioned, silently?
Humans come with different environments and different backgrounds. You and I might not get along together as we might have different perspectives of thinking. But I respect your opinions (hopefully so do you) and therefore I would like to hear from you, what would be your answers (if you feel like sharing) if I asked you the same three questions above.
And oh, we're now at the end of Ramadhan. Got mixed feelings, huh? :\
...to be continued
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