Assalammualaikum wbt.
I realize how harsh I treated my time previously. I really do. Not until the desire of not letting go another year to surpass me without leaving its tract for me to follow.
But I am glad this sort of feeling has entwined my throat introducing my hollow organs to gasp for air due to ischemia all over the body tissues ergo blossom into a humble servant of His.
I dare say I might not be one of His favorites. Matter-of-fact, I am actually yearn for it.
But thing like this, doesn't it force you to make yourself for becoming one?
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I cut across the same patch of grass. The smell, the color, the picture, the scene. Everything is the same. The same old aspect. Sometimes I did feel bore, but I hold the feeling inside. Deep down, I don't know how many of it has been left accumulated and how many amount of time I've been spending all days and nights for keeping my brain to serve the warmest welcome as the sign of allowing the familiar thing to pass by my neurons. Each and every single of them is working diligently yet way so appreciating it. Less whine, less complaining (or should I say "Without whine, without complaining" instead?).
How about me?
By comparison, I am a man who stands 173 cm straight on ground weighed all but 60 kg whilst neuron - in general, of course a tiny creation of God - histologically, its cell body might have variable in diameter for its size, ranged from 5-150 micrometer. Yet, people like me never stop questioning and whining in every breath for living the same cycle, again and again.
Only if we spend some time to think and comparing (of course by using knowledge. It's a major turn-off for not using one) ourselves to the brilliant creation of God, even to a little annoying fly!
But yeah, human beings are also of the brilliant creations of His. Hence, we must not waste ourselves to bits too!
In that manner, does life not have anything else to feed our mind?
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It's the last day of Muharram 1433H, and the last week of year 2011. Stir the days left delicately and sip them with full satisfaction.
My apologize to all of you if I ever did wrong either direct ir indirectly. I know, not all people will read this, but...
...if I die young, do recite me the whole ayah of Al-Fatihah.
Thank you :)