There would be a certain point in your life where you no longer have the guts to let yourself know that what you're doing is actually good and not harmful either to you or others. Thus, it makes you...
Feel like to get rid of yourself away from the sight of other people, where you think it will indeed satisfy them because you think you're no longer needed.
Feel like to dwell yourself into the deepest world that ever existed down to the core of the earth. But the fact is, the deeper you go, the hotter it will be. Hence you couldn't bare it anymore.
Feel like dangling from the stars. To be among of them just to make you feel accepted by the community of the universe since people of the earth islanded you from joining the crowd.
Feel like flying in the blue sky like the eagle. To fly back and forth, making irregular circles in the sky. Watching other people, observing them, trying to pick bits and pieces lessons on how to conduct life. But down there you see the small mice hiding behind a rock. You think, "they might be hating me."
I shouldn't mention, but couldn't help.
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Just a piece of advice, put a smile onto your dull face. Although you need to fake it, believe me there's nothing else looks pleasant on one's face rather than a smile. So yeah, smile. :)
And have faith. Life's too short to keep on losing hope. Nothing else to be worried about in this life unless the bond between you and The Creator is severely interrupted. This is actually the sign that you need to seek Him back, perhaps you've been forgetting Him for a long while and that's why He sent you such test to deal with. It's actually some sort like a "reminder"!
Last but not least, put some effort to change the mishap. If we're diagnosed to suffer a heart disease, we might want to heal the disease by treating the heart, not to the other parts of the body (unless they are related) but still, the point is look onto the main thing first. That's the key.
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P/S I - It's now in the late of month of March, and also the sign that we're actually getting near to the final examinations... Palpate my pulse, the blood is flowing in a rush!
P/S II - I might sound ignorant, but to whoever who will be dealing with live and death matters (by means of affecting your future. Hehehe.) I wish you all the best. :) Especially to those who will be leaving Malaysia soon, be well-prepared guys! (and gurls!)